52 Weeks of 2014 - Week 16

52 Weeks of 2014 - Week 15

52 Weeks of 2014 - Week 14

Do you ever wonder at the life you are living? I am one of those people who likes to live free from danger, who would probably be perfectly happy to stay safe in harbor, never venturing out into the great unknown and the potential enormity of the ocean. Yes I am more of a row boat than a ship, I suppose.

Really, it is how I have always been, although in my younger years and before we had children, I know I was more prepared to take risks and willing to have a little adventure. My husband, on the other hand loves adventures. So what was I really made for? I know that I am meant to be with him, there are no doubts there, and not just to tie him down and anchor him in the harbor forever.

Sometimes there is a clear path ahead of us and sometimes choices need to be made. Our current 'adventure' is swiftly coming to an end but the horizon ahead of us still seems foggy. I am trusting that we will, at least, be able to see the step immediately in front of us, even if what lies further ahead is shrouded in mystery for a while. It may not be entirely comfortable, we may not have all of the answers but we keep moving forward.

52 Weeks of 2014 - Week 13

As I look back on our last few years, there are many things I could focus on. We made the choice after our first child, our son was born, for me to stop my job outside the home and be with our children. To be honest, I didn't really feel like it was a choice to be made, I couldn't handle the thought of leaving them. I know people do; some feel they have no other option, some absolutely love their jobs and have worked hard to get where they are and I do not judge them, but I wanted, more than anything to be there for my kids.

I had some pretty great jobs, that I really enjoyed with people that I looked forward to seeing every day, but this...this job of being a mother has and is, by far the most important. We could financially be in a much stronger position if I had kept working, but we have three amazing, beautiful children, who deserved to be loved and taught by us. Who needed to know they were important and they were worth spending time with and being with.

There is school now and there are friends and they are starting to experience life, but I hope that basic values we have instilled, foundations we helped to build will remain strong. We will continue to sow into them as much as we can and encourage and inspire, but it is no longer just us influencing them.

I do not regret for one moment the sacrifices we have made. I would go back and do it all over again. This is the most important job in the whole world.